Alone in a Group

Does one need to be surrounded in their sexuality all the time? I have my life. My friends. My other interests. While very happy to meet new friends, I do not feel a burning desire to seek out new friends either. Perhaps this makes me anti-social. Well, I have been feeling a bit less than social lately. People interest me because of who they are as people, not because of what they do or like. Some of the most god-awful boring people I have ever met have been brilliant at one thing or another. But I didn’t really connect with them as friends.

Connecting with someone, to me, is an intensity that occurs at many levels. I have a good number of people that I do count as friends but far many more who I would probably classify as acquaintances. It’s not the same thing at all. And I find that I am never completely comfortable with acquaintances. I am always on guard in some way or another. Perhaps a reason I am not fond of large groups or noisy crowds.

I don’t think that I seek out privacy, nor do I think I am particularly a very private person in many ways. But I do seem to end up with an awful lot of time that I would classify as ‘alone time’ and the thing is, I don’t really mind it that much.