06 July 2012

Does Life Just Get More Boring As You Get Older?

Or do you just become less emotionally susceptible to all the little things that happen.  It will always make me sad that I have, over the past ten years (well, maybe six years) written less and less over time from how it used to be.  I don't think that there's necessarily less going on, but the level of significance I give to events has perhaps dropped. Or, quite wrongly, I am more convinced of my ability to remember things as I get older, when in truth the reverse seems to be true.

It's not that I don't think about writing, often.  I just don't do it.  But I should you know, not for the least of which reasons is that I'm about to undertake writing a fucking PhD which is like writing a book.  And what is it they say about writing?  You should do some every day in order to get better at it.  I guess I should write here every day then. Ha.

So there's no point in trying to record all the detail between the last post and now.  There have been some highlights however, both good and bad.  Maybe I should just make a list:
  • I went to the States to see family and also to go to my 20th High School reunion.  It was actually kind of fun to go to the reunion and I enjoyed it.
  • I went with my mom to see Cirque du Soleil at Radio City Music Hall.  I've never been before but always wanted to.  It was very cool.  I would go again.  What's not to like about amazing sets and costumes and bendy acrobats who fly through the air?  Seriously.
  • My good friend is finally pregnant after I think 7 or 8 rounds of IVF with twins.  This was interesting news anyway, though it's progressed to be complicated. Apparently there is something wrong with the heart of one of the babies and he will need open heart surgery either immediately after birth or within the first year.  That really sucks.
  • I had three dates with a guy who seemed like he had potential until at the end of our third date he told me he wanted to pursue something with someone else he had also been seeing.  But then that he didn't want to lose touch either because he felt we had a good connection.  This was an unpleasant throwback to how I felt when I wrote here.  I have come to realize this is a big deal for me.  Especially with my history of being not really the girlfriend or what have you.  Is it too much to ask to want to be with someone who --actually-- wants to be with me first?  Only?  You know, sometimes I think it is.  But at least these days I think I know better than to settle for anything less.  Oh, and before anyone feel too harshly about this guy, although the outcome upset me, I'm not mad at him and I might stay in touch because he's a little bit screwed up at the moment seeing as his long time girlfriend died from leukemia in March and lets be honest, he really probably isn't ready to date anyone yet at the moment.
  • PhD drama.  Or rather, journal article writing drama.  On the one hand, I do want to say that my own work seems to be going really well, so that's actually very exciting and I'm happy about that.  Although now that I'm over the 2.5 year mark, I have to say I'm getting a little bit bored of it all in the sense that I sort of want to move on with my life, but that's not going to happen for some time yet.  But no, there are other parts to what I do that really upset me.  Mainly the other PhD student and my supervisor.  Both make me want to kill myself with a butter knife.  At any rate, I'm currently having irritating discussions with them around a journal article that the other student doesn't want to work on, which is under my authorship.  And my supervisor is trying to make me do all the work while keep him on as author.  This is such a convoluted story that I don't feel like typing out all the detail just now but suffice to say it's really pissing me off.  So that's annoying.
  • Oh, in fun news, I took a french class!  That was loads of fun!!!  The Engineering Department has it's own language lab and runs its own classes which I haven't been able to take advantage of until now.  But they also do these 'summer intensives' so I worked out I could do it this year and I did.  I loved it.  Learning for the sake of learning, no tests, no pressure, just fun.  Small class.  Free.  I enjoyed it so much I found some online resources to keep it up with and I'm seriously considering if it will be possible for me to do the full class next year although it will require me to be in Cambridge once every week, so an extra trip every other week which may not work out, we'll see.  But anyway, it was great.
  • My mom is coming to visit in September and we're going to Copenhagen for five days and we managed to score reservations for NOMA.  I could not possibly be more excited about that.
  • There's been two nights of 'Dinner Club' which has been awesome.
  • The Olympics are coming up and I have tickets for some events and also some paralympic tickets.
  • My friend who has been in Australia for a year is coming back for a visit so I'm looking forward to seeing him.
I'm sure there are other things.  Now lost to time.