This Afternoon

I am missing him. And feeling like a gigantic bitch.

*sigh*

No word. Upon rereading my 'this is what's going on' email.... I could easily see how that might lead him to never contact me again.

Of course, that just proves my point. That he is incapable of caring about anything beyond himself. For him to let me in, for him to acknowledge his role in all this, for him to apologize to me- this would mean his world would crumble. This is the point. This is why I had to do what I did.

But this afternoon, I'm just missing him and feeling like I'm somehow at fault.