Uncomfortable Thoughts

When everything happened with the operation, there is only one friend of mine that I really wanted to see who I had to ask to come see me when I was recovering.

And that one person I asked still didn't come.

What does it mean when someone says if you ever really need them they'll be there? How much worse would things have had to have been? And the reality is... I knew in my heart... they'd never come to begin with.

It's why I didn't even want to tell them I was sick, originally.

Because I knew how much it would hurt my feelings...

...when they didn't show up.