Fluctuations

Apparently it takes a while for the one remaining ovary to settle down into the role of providing the hormones that were once provided by two. What this means is that I have been having stupid mood swings for the past four weeks that have been driving me mad. I've just found myself at certain moments ready to burst into tears over nothing. Which is not how I normally am, so at least I am fairly assured that it's the hormones. Still, I've discussed hormones before and how much I am not fond of how they fuck with how I feel. I will be a lot happier when I am not worried about this coming and going of misery.

On the other hand, I'm very happy that today is Friday. I haven't been being the most productive at work exactly. I'm finding it really hard to focus. I mean, under the best of circumstances I can find it really hard to focus. But I feel that I've been particularly scatterbrained this week. I've been very forgetful about random things and maybe this is a little bit disturbing since one of the qualities that I have always tended to rely on in myself is my ability to remember insignificant and stupid things. Hopefully it's a passing phase, or related to the above hormone fluctuations.

In the meantime there are other things going on which are generally good. Some time this weekend a cleaner is coming to visit to assess my house for regular cleaning. I am so excited about this. I can't wait. Completely worth the minimal cost, and I know it will make me so happy to have a very clean house. I have also signed up a new flatmate. She moves in in just under a month. So my financial situation will improve, and that's cool. It's also good timing because I need my financial situation to improve because a friend of mine from New York is coming to visit and we are taking a long weekend trip to Paris. That will be the second time I've been to Paris, so I'm really looking forward to that. And the weekend after I go to Paris, I'm hopping back on the EuroStar and heading to Rotterdam for the office trip!

So it's important to make note of the fact that there are lots of good things going on at the moment. And that my silly hormones that are causing me distress are just chemicals.

And if I ever manage to settle on the images for the article I've written with the artist, my first article should be up soon! And I've already started on the second, so that's still very exciting, even if it does end up being a bit of work, I really enjoy it. Now, as soon as my next porn installment finishes downloading, I can go to bed!