Oh Dear...

It comes on quick doesn't it?  So quick.  Falling falling falling.  Well where are we at just a few hours later?  I'm irritable and grouchy and quick to anger.  This benefits me because.... I can let out steam at something tangible.  It proves to me that I'm actually alone because no one is good enough/cares enough/whatevers enough.  This reflexively makes me want to snap at people and push them away which will facilitate the proving that they are not really there for me.

This is particularly self destructive behavior.  I would be best served by not talking to anyone just now.

But even that- that is part of the cycle no?

Fuck me.