Journal Jealousy

Link to link to link to link. Following from the semi-secret site, I find the work of Audrey Kawasaki. I like her work, but am actually completely smitten with her journals. From her portfolio link, choose 'doodles'. From her blog, I found James Jean and his sketchbooks. Why the hell can't I journal like that? My journals are so neat and orderly filled with precise letters. I try to make a drawing for each entry but it's always weak, whereas these are bold. Like my blog here, I want an image for every post. I think in images, my mind is alive with visualization. But my talent falls short of my imagination. I know that drawing is lots of practice. I think what I need though, is practice in being bold.